All of you can know sometimes I hate, anger my best friend so much. And you know it that he is NOT perfect at all. From scale 1-10 I will give him only 6. I have my own version of best friend and he cannot even close to this. Keep asking on myself nothing really special at all from him. But now I realize so far he always giving me great direction, a wishdom. Now I realize I hate him coz he was telling me the trurth. Make me angry coz he is right. Now I didn't realize I just pass it on his kindness. Just like he always told me. He just didn't know it but I'm so grateful for him. This moment I so grateful but next moment all of you can read how mad, anger, hate him so much haha. I wish you knew buddy how grateful I am, lucky I am having you beside me. I know thereis no forever in my vocubulary word of life but every single time I pray to my God I always pray that He will always taking good care of him, his entire family and thanks God for having you

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it's time for me to step back, hold on and figure it out, fix it by myself. It's my own problem i have to face it on my own. Make a promise to myself that i will never concact them anymore.

just realize how lucky that person who can live his/her own dream every single day, time such a HUGE bless. I wish they know that. I can't even asking for a minute, a hour, a day or a week just for a while is such a bless i am. Anger inside! On myself

I know it is so STUPID down, sinking by feeling. But I'm just the ordinary hukan being has a heart, a feeling. Trying hard to be positive but I can't

Sinking into "Hold my heart" by Sara bareilles. Tears running down from my face. Deeply sorry I have a huge problem with feeling lately. A big hole (empty) inside. Just wanna cry for no reason. The truth is I think I felt so hollow

"A Ha moment". I didn't realize that lately i'm so mad on myself. Me, my best friend and our other friends hang out together. And there is one issue that i know forsure that i CAN'T do that. While my best friend and the other friends talking at one point i'm so MAD on myself why can't i cross that line? Become demon? Evil? So it would be easy?. May be i don't really think seriously about that but i just didn't realize that at one point at myself i'm keep pushing myself to be that person so it would be better for other specially for my best friend? days days i keep mad on myself. Now at this moment God giving me that light. Hey what is wrong with you? Sinking by feeling? Give me a break dude!. You are who you really are, take it or leave it as simple as that. Just be who you really are?. God once again please taking good care of myself not because of someone else but for myself